"So take a look outside yourself and tell me what you see, i cant believe that you wont see the change in me, give me strength to find the road thats lost in me give me time to heal and build myself a dream and give me eyes to see the world surrounding me give me strength to be only me" ~ Dido

I could write a hell of a lot about inner strength and how it's taken me a little while to achieve it but recent events including the shitty job situation, poor health and my poor uncle would normally have me spiralling into self destruct and some amazing people have helped me out immensely especially this past week. I've reconnected with old friends who I haven't seen for years, and they have helped instill a piece of me that I thought I had lost forever and I have made friendships with new amazing people who I am genuinely proud to have as friends. 

I thank those who saw in me something I couldn't see in myself and who showed me how to peel away the layers of doubt and worry and just be me. Theres nothing wrong with being me, some people may not want it but tough shit, for the first time in a long time I realise that I am important and that if I put myself 2nd best then everybody else always will too. 

Special thank you to Andy, my oncall shrink, friend and alarm clock. Cat for being the lovely lady she is who listens to my random bleats all the time and finally to G for reminding me who I was back then and who I can be xx

If I havent mentioned you it doesn't mean you don't count, but this isn't a Bafta speech it's just me and my music, letting my voice out.  x


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